K-On! 05: Mugi’s Eureka = Yuri ka?!
One of Nietzsche’s loveliest sentences is “Become who you are.” The immediate implication of this statement dazzled me the first time I came across it, and it dazzles me today, namely, that you actually have the alternative not to become who you are. Nietzsche’s words are at heart a warning: make sure you don’t get derailed in your life and end up becoming someone else. Some people call this dangerous path “selling out.”
Of course, it’s hard to figure out who you are in the first place, and the best (only?) strategy might be not so much to focus on one goal but to move along and listen to your heart when it tells you you’re going the wrong way. Eventually, if you steer clear of the potholes, you’ll find yourself on the right road.
Unrequited love seems to be a classic catalyst for this process. Two examples from Goethe: 1) hopeless love for Gretchen leads Faust to sorcery, which he desired from the start; 2) hopeless love for Lotte leads Werther to suicide, ditto. It worked for Sawako-sensei. The question is: will it work for Tsumugi?
Mugi’s attraction for Sensei is destiny itself. As scioness of a mighty business conglomerate, she has had it all. And all that is left for her to do is to finish school, work for Dad a couple of years, marry, produce an heir, voila. But for people at this level, there is only one thing that they don’t have, and it’s the one thing that by definition will threaten their possession of everything else: freedom, rebellion. [This is why Lucifer, the Lord’s favorite angel, rebelled].
No better way for a girl in Tsumugi’s position to rebel than to yearn for a same-sex relationship (bye bye heir), and with a schoolteacher with a shady past to boot! I’m curious to see how Mugi will deal with this crush, and whether she’ll ever think of employing her financial resources to get her own way…
Sawako-sensei’s situation is interesting. I don’t believe for a second that her little goodytwoshoes act means that she’s reverted from her musical awakening. This is like Buddhist enlightenment, she couldn’t go back even if she wanted to! What this means is she’s wearing a mask.
In terms of Japanese literature one easily comes to Yukio Mishima’s semi-autobiographical Confessions of a Mask. Here he goes through a series of unrequited crushes for male schoolmates that finally force him to become who he is, although the mask that he wears stays on more or less for the rest of his life… In Sawako’s case, not wearing a mask means wearing one, and viceversa. Nice paradox!
Emotional masks are a heavy burden. You could argue Mishima pulled it off well; you could argue his death proves he didn’t. In musical terms, I think of Nirvana‘s Come as You Are. Sawako-sensei must have this confusion running in her head:
Come as you are
as you were
as I want you to be
as a friend (x2)
as a known memory.
As I most definitely do not want to win the title for most depressing K-On! blog post ever, let me switch gears here and talk about the fact that this episode was hilarious from beginning to end. It reminded me of the first episode, with a perfect combination of fast-paced slapstick action and snappy rapid-fire jokes.
Ritsu and Yui, which were engaged in a mind-meld last episode, were clearly separate in this one. Pinky and the Brain come to mind here. Ritsu’s is the silliness of ambition and conquest. Yui’s is the silliness of bunnies and fluffy ducks. I think it’s great they both share a general zest for life and a craving for cakes and pastries, but outside of that, let’s try to keep them apart!
Then there’s Mio. I don’t know why everyone keeps calling Yui the moe-blob, when it’s Mio that insists on actually getting into a blob-like state. I think people are being blinded by their Blobbles here. Anyway, her song lyrics were cute and I am looking forward to seeing the School Festival next week!
And please, don’t think of the fact that Werther, Mishima and Cobain all− You know what I mean! If Mio hears about it she will get upset so let’s not mention it, OK?